You know, sometimes I amaze myself at how unaware I can be.
Does this ever happen to you?
Yesterday started off just great. I’m a fairly early riser because I like my “free time” in the morning before the day’s demands start knocking on the door, pushing at my consciousness, distracting me. Wu Chi, Tai Chi 7 Step Simple Form (see the form) and just BREATHE.
Then I booted up. First couple of emails were great, supportive, inspirational, enlightening, and then I read it – the one that sent me immediately back to remembering that old habit.
WELL! THAT wasn’t going to happen again! No way! That’s old news and I’m no longer subject to that! No Way!
Fortunately, I’m getting pretty good at shoving out that old habit voice, and emailed my Accountability Buddy to ask for support.
And then went about my day.
My first appointment ran a little longer than I expected, which is wonderful – I love visiting my clients!
I got home with a few minutes to spare and decided to make myself a nice bowl of hot oatmeal. I misread the directions because I didn’t take the time to put on my glasses, so the oatmeal didn’t thicken up properly. Ah well, time for my client call, and I’ll just check it later.
Unfortunately, I left the burner on, and when I realized that a half hour later, I had a gooey mess, inedible unless you’re starving, which I wasn’t. Oh well, I wasn’t that hungry anyway….
Phone rings – and time to squeeze in a quick client visit before my webinar. Great! I love visiting my clients, even though I was planning to review the material for the webinar and sit for some quiet time to make sure I’m listening when the learning begins.
Back just in time for the webinar……
I’m tired, I’m hungry, but I don’t want a big meal. Okay, I will whip up one of my quick rice dishes, always comforting. In the meantime, I think I’ll use the timer (remembering the oatmeal incident from earlier in the day.) And I’m off to look at some other stuff. The timer goes off.
I set it for too long. Yes, my dish is edible, but I’m going to have fun cleaning up the pan from the too-cooked stuff on the bottom…..
And it occurred to me – Sustenance. Nourishment. Food. Supply.
Symbolism – have I been caring for my own needs while “fitting in” this, and “squeezing in” that? Or have I actually been hearing that “old habit” voice whispering in my ear (“Keep giving until it hurts, if there’s time left over you can have it, unless someone else needs you”) since the morning even though I thought I had chased it out and replaced it with my attentive awareness to the idea that there is room in the world for me?
I didn’t do, and around the holidays especially, I haven’t been, listening to the Practical Wisdom of taking good care of myself so that I can do my job and my life well, which is in Service.
So Jet? And everybody else who is listening –
Sharing and Service are wonderful. Necessary. But you can’t give what you don’t have. If you take yourself out of the equation, if you don’t take care of yourself, you won’t have anything left to share with others.
Keep It Simple. Every day say, “There’s room in the world for me”.